1st day of school pics

Starting when she was 3 years old I took 1st day of school pictures and tomorrow will be the first day I will not be blessed with that experience with my beautiful Sydney Lisa Jeter and Cameron will stand alone without his sister beside him for the first day. There is no ease to this pain and sorrow. We have for the past 45 days searched for comfort but find none. We as a family are lost without her. How it breaks my heart to know that Cameron’s lock screen for his iPod is a picture of the cemetery where his sister is. How is a parent suppose to ever be okay with that?