I’ve started to type out this status several times now but end up in tears, but today I’m going to push through because time isn’t going to slow down and stop for me and the 10th is coming whether I want it to or not. Many have asked if we are planning to do anything on July 10th, which will be 2 yrs since Sydney’s accident. I’ve learned many things since that horrific night. I’ve learned that this pain is never ending..time doesn’t make it better or easier and enduring the heartache alone only magnifies the emptiness. I could lay in bed and cry all day or I sit at the cemetery and cry but inside I know that isn’t what Sydney would want from us. She wants us to remember much she loved life, her laughter, her smile, her craziness, and most importantly her love for others and God. So again Stacy Jeter and I will have our house open for anyone who would like to stop by visit and offer support and encourage through out the day. You can stay for 5 minutes or stay the whole day whichever works for you schedule. The pool will be clean and waiting for people to enjoy it. We will have some BBQ and plenty of snacks. You do not have to know Sydney or us to stop by..If her legacy has touched you please consider coming by and sharing that with us. Last year on the 10th I had two girls stop by I had never met..It was one of my biggest blessings to hear their stories and get to know them. I will also have a few of her books there for anyone who might want to look through it or who may want a copy. We will also be sending up a few sky lanterns at dusk. We appreciate all the people who have continued to walk beside us and pray for us. We are forever grateful!! Love you forever and always Sydney Lisa Jeter

Vacations include pain

Vacations cause us as much pain as they do enjoyment and laughter. The pain of losing her is unending and many may feel we don’t appreciate the blessings of a beautiful vacation in Colorado but the truth is..we understand and appreciate every second of it..if we didn’t realize how big of a blessing it is we wouldn’t be able to fight through the pain..cry at night and smile during the day fighting so that we don’t waste one second that God has given us with Cameron..we aren’t at home in the bed giving into our sadness we are here seeking comfort from God walking his path as we try to continue living. My vacations may be filled with pain and sorrow but Its because of my loss and pain that I understand how blessed I important todays memories are to my tomorrow or Cameron’s tomorrow. I do not post on social media to pretend I have the perfect life or make you think nothing bad has ever happened to me..I post instead hoping to show you that even when life has given you the unbearable..the unending sorrow..If you truly believe and focus on God instead of letting it destroy can learn from it and even while enduring it possibly help others learn from it as well. I am thankful for every blessing God has placed on my family since we lost Sydney but it is not the blessings of this world that I am most thankful is the gift that he has given..the promises that my eternity will be filled with far more then the blessings I’ve received in this world

There is no vacation from missing her

Sitting here drinking coffee watching the sun rise and brighten the mountain tops in Breckenridge. God’s blessings so far on this vacation have been unending and Cameron has experienced so many new things, but as each day passes and I look back I can see he’s missing her as much as we Cadallac Ranch his friend found a can of spray paint and Cameron painted her initials on one of the cars next to a cross and then yesterday while shopping he found a little souvenir that said breckenridge Colorado with the name Sydney on it..we can vacation from work and home but there is no vacation from missing her..praying our trip continues to bring our family unforgettable memories

A poem

I had no idea the 1 year and 11 month mark would be so difficult, but as it came and went (June 10th) I’ve realized I’m distracted and overwhelmed with emotion walking through the days leading up to the 2yr anniversary of Sydney’s accident. I am a numbers person so as I have found and gathered stuff over the last two years I’ve realized God has blessed me with a precious timeline of her heart the last month through her writings, her text, our talks, and her post on Social Media.He made sure no one would have to guess where she was spiritually. When I read her writings I often think of Luke 1:45 Her faith and willingness to obey God not only saved her it has saved me from the depths of sorrow on many occasions. Luke 11:28 keeps my focus off my emotions and circumstances and on God’s truth, and promises. I don’t have to doubt what she wants from me..She’s written it in her own handwriting and left it for me. It is easy for me to see all of the blessings and they continue to remind me that God hasn’t left me, but they don’t take away the desire to go back to the happiest times of my life..No matter what blessings lie ahead for me I’m faced with the reality that she isn’t going to be a physical part of them. The ‘first” never stop and the second’s and third’s just remind us that it only gets harder..We’ve been on vacation since the accident but this will be the first year we attempt to go somewhere new..somewhere she never got to go..I’m so excited about going yet at the same time I’m broken inside knowing I have to go without her..I’m never going to overcome the thoughts that I didn’t have enough time with her..that she should be with us..I’m forced to survive something else but I know when I look back I’ll see all that I am..all that I’ve become all that I’ve survived is due solely to my relationship with God who constantly reminds me that he loves her more than me. I’m attaching one of my latest poems