Today Sydney Lisa Jeter would have turned 17
Today my precious daughter Sydney Lisa Jeter would have turned 17 years old. I was so blessed with every second that she was a part of our lives. People describe her as someone with a contagious smile that lived life to the fullest everyday. When I think about Sydney’s life and how I can possibly honor her on this day I am reminded of her journies and where she was the night she meet Jesus. People sing praise songs in church and I often cry because I remember sitting there watching her worship and sing. Now I think how unreal it is that she isn’t there and grieve because I know I could spend years here on earth before I get to see her again. The thought of that is crippling. I miss my baby girl beyond what anyone could imagine. I can’t tell her Happy Birthday I can’t celebrate her turning another year older. It’s difficult trying to find a way to honor or give someone something that isn’t here. Cameron struggles wanting to do something for his sister. We try so hard to grasp anything to make us feel as though she is still here. If someone would have asked her in the last week what she would want from us if she were to leave us I know her first response would be to take care of Cameron and her family, but the next thing she would have said would be for everyone to honestly seek God, Know God, Obey God, and Love God. She found her Prince of Peace and was on a mission to become the best disciple she could be. We are so very blessed that we have God’s promises that if we walk with him we will get to see her again. In my flesh I am broken, hurt, and beaten down as life has become more than I can bare. I will however continue to draw my strength from God so that I make it through another day. Today God will continually pick me up as I struggle and stumble through the agony of not having her and being able to celebrate her birthday. My present to her will be to continue to walk where God had her place me…following him waiting until the day I may be blessed with getting to see her again! I love you Sydney so very much Happy Birthday!