This pain and suffering is unimaginable

This pain and suffering is unimaginable. I miss her with every inch of my soul. I miss her laughter her smile her playfulness. I wish I would have taken more videos so I could hear her voice. I miss that she was beside me all the time. I often drive alone and know that if she was here she would have been sitting right beside me. The emptiness consumes me. Her birthday is on Monday. I know that it is a wasted prayer but I can’t help but pray and beg God to not make me have to go through that day without her. Even though it cant be answered exactly as I prayed it I know he’s listening to my sorrow and heart ache.