Looking to help someone grieving..walk beside them
This summer has been full of heartbreak but also full of blessings..I haven’t posted since the day before Cameron’s schedule pickup..I am blessed to say that his schedule pick up went very well because people matter..Thank you Autumn Rhodes Scott for offering to walk with us if you hadn’t been on vacation and I can not Thank Lisa Treacy Edrington enough for offering and walking beside us that day..God knew she was the perfect person as Cameron is very comfortable with her since she was not only his fifth grade teacher but also a soccer mom whose daughter played with Sydney for years. She allowed me to stay distracted, not get too overwhelmed by my feelings, kept Cameron smiling and comfortable so that his first experience at middle school was positive. No I did not make it out of the school without tears but I believe my sweet boy knew that wasn’t going to be possible because when I apologized to him for crying he said it okay Mom I thought you did very well I’m so proud of you..I know I have said over and over again that people make a difference in our grief..I’m not sure if its because Sydney’s life revolved around loving others or if its like that for everyone but I will continue to say PEOPLE matter. We were blessed by some friends to take a vacation to Concan and stay with the Stockbergers and enjoyed several days on the river with them and The Heifrin’s..We were also blessed to bring along a friend of Cameron’s and one of Sydney’s sweet friends Lindsey Leigh Mitchell ..walking beside us providing support and memories knowing Sydney was proud we are still trying and haven’t given up. We couldn’t have done it without PEOPLE supporting and loving us and God is continually providing them and strength so that we aren’t completely overwhelmed with sorrow and grief..After losing Sydney we had to experience some unbelievable behavior from people we thought were going to be there for us..but God is greater than that he removed them to protect us as he often does..looking back now it is so clear..the choices they’ve made are no where near where Sydney or we desire to be..but as people were removed he blessed us with those with pure hearts and a true love for her and our family and I’m so Greatful. I just came back from my last trip to The Frio river with another one of Sydney’s amazing Mickaela Brooke Slaughter it was just me and her and she blessed me with the opportunity to have girl talk, relax in the river, tan, and even dress up and take a photo shoot. All the things little boys and husbands don’t want to do. I have always felt the closest to Sydney when I’m doing the things she loved to do, the things we did together with the people she loved and that loved her..that is when I feel her presence the strongest..Its hard for others to understand how much of a difference these things make..no it doesn’t take away the pain..we still miss her every second..we still continue to cry..but we are continuing to live, smile, and love in a world we don’t feel like we belong in anymore..and that is the biggest blessing anyone can give us..So thank you again to ALL who have stepped up and walked in that dark spot next to us..I know it isn’t easy..it will continue to be hard but you will NEVER understand what it means to this broken hearted family..Thank you for your selflessness!