Finding it hard to feel thankful

Im starting by apologizing for my honesty but if I am not honest what is the point of posting at all..As thanksgiving approaches it is hard to think about the things I am thankful for when most ppl’s thanksgiving prayers include being thankful for the family that comes together and sits around the table..when my table will forever be missing my sweet girl..when we can either stay at home and cry or go to a relatives house and watch them enjoy their kids wishing things were how they used to be..but even though My heart is broken and My life is not where I want it to be..GOD is Sovereign and I know he not only understands my broken heart but he loves me anyway and I am THANKFUL for that..I am thankful for the ppl who have seen a hurting and wounded family and instead of running away they have taken the uncomfortable spot of walking beside us listening and allowing us to feel what we feel..not expecting us to get over it or to stop talking about her..but continue remembering her posting about her and honoring her with their lives..it has been hard realizing some of the ppl we gave and did so much for didn’t just walk away but instead added extra pain by attacking a grieving family..but as God has removed them I am in awe of who he has brought into our lives to help us see and walk with God and to help us remember, live for, and honor Sydney the way she would want..the way God would want..It is powerful to not only see Gods blessings among the chaos of this world but to know that when we struggle with the brokenness that we feel God doesn’t stop loving us he continues to try and encourage us to stand on truth always..When you thank God for all your family sitting around your table..hug them extra and please add our broken family to your prayers..we are Greatful for any and all prayers