A Mom’s first Birthday without her child

I wanted to start off by saying Thank you for all the birthday wishes and mostly for the prayers. The way Facebook is it tells me I have all these post on my wall but I can’t see them all to respond to them so if I missed you it wasn’t personal I just can’t see it😢to respond. I had the best birthday I could have missing such a huge piece of my life. Sydney was always the one to make a play or come running in knocking me down with a hug saying Happy Birthday Mommie. I don’t believe she let this birthday go by without letting me know she was gonna be with me..in fact I like to think she sent one heck of a storm to wake me up at 3:00am telling me happy birthday. For those that might have missed all the stories..the night my precious baby left us there was one cloud in the sky by our house that provided a beautiful lightening show no rain and the rest of the sky was clear. she hadn’t even been gone 24 hours. At the visitation when you walked out of the funeral home you saw a beautiful double rainbow. At the cemetery after the service all of a sudden a huge storm came in and poured down on everyone and blew the canopy off..for her birthday the wind was so strong that we could barley lift the balloons we had for her. The first soccer game of the season it rained and actually I think they had more rain during games this year then they had in a very long time..for her memorial game again..raining and this time it was also 28 degrees..so when that storm came I knew it was Gods way of letting me know my girl was with me in spirit. I had some amazing people step up and make this very hard day as happy as it could possibly be..I will say again PEOPLE make all the difference. The ones that will be next to you whether you’re happy sad hurting laughing..I have a God that won’t give up on me when I’m sad he sends me someone not only to remind me of the eternity he has promised with my beautiful girl but to remind me even though my girl is not with me as long as I continue to walk with him my blessing will be enough for me to survive..God is enough..No matter where God takes me I will follow..I have to trust that he knows best and that even though my sufferings are great in this life I will be rewarded in my eternal life..there are a few people..very few..that have chosen to walk away disrespecting her, living speaking constant lies, making decisions they can never take back or undo..but what I have come to realize is..God protected me by removing them from my life..He makes good out of the bad..he has provided so many people that know how to love the way God says to love and I am forever blessed

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