Standing on a train track with a train barreling on you and you can’t move

James 1:12 Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him. I have no idea how long our test will be but every second of everyday is a new challenge trying to survive living without our amazing daughter. I know where she is..not even I could love her more than God himself. She is in a perfect place while we are left in the horrible imperfect world. We stood strong through Cameron’s birthday but Stacy explained Thanksgiving as if we are standing on the railroad tracks with the train barreling right at us and we can’t move or run from it. I believe everyone of us was blessed by her over the top out going personality. It is so hard to not have that in our lives. They say you will find your new normal I have found mine…my new normal is missing her every second of every day. Longing for the day I get to see her again. I loved her from the very first time I heard her heartbeat..the kind of love that isn’t bound by earth my love for her continues to grow just as if she were still here because my love was not based off of what I received from her it was unconditional because she was who she was. She really was everything she appeared to be and some! I was blessed to have been given such an amazing gift!