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Carrying her with me..Taylor Swift Oct. 17 2015

In May of 2013 Taylor Swift came through Texas on tour. Sydney and I had talked and planned on going but I didn’t realize how early we needed to get tickets and by the time I went to get them they were outrageous..I decided to wait until her next tour so tickets would be a little cheaper..Sydney was disappointed but even though she was spoiled she never asked to be..I just spoiled her on my own so she easily accepted my promise and was excited about looking forward to the next tour..so almost 2 1/2 yrs later Taylor Swift is touring through Texas..I promised her we would go so there was no way I was going to miss it..I wrapped myself in the things that reminded me of her..I wore her favorite vest, her boots and was joined with one of her sweetest friend and “we” went to see Taylor Swift last night. I’m not gonna lie I missed her every second..no matter how hard I try I can’t fill the emptiness especially when it comes to something we had planned for so long to do together but at the same time I also felt her with me..She was dancing singing and laughing with Lindsey and I..It is often in my hardest moments that her spirit encourages and fills me the most..I’m positive she was determined to let me know she was with me❤ I wanted to say a special thank you to Lindsey Mitchell for walking beside me carrying my precious babies memory so honorably and living her life for God the way Sydney would want. This was a once in a life time moment and you helped me “live” it for Sydney. I hope you know I Thank God often for putting you in our lives because I know a blessing as special as you only comes from God.

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Thoughts about Sydney’s mission statement

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I’ve been thinking a lot lately about Sydney’s mission statement. I’ve shared it before as it was in the flyer we handed out at her funeral. It is not necessarily the words that have been consuming my thoughts, but rather the actions she took after she wrote the words..You see what prompted her to write a mission statement in the first place is the book she was reading (Your Hearts Desire by Sheri Rose Shepherd) She didn’t just read the book and move on..she stopped prayed and thought deeply about her hearts desires, found a sticky note and put her hearts mission into words. For some reason my mind doesn’t let me stop here..why? I guess because she didn’t stop there..she didn’t write those words for others..she didn’t write it and post it..actually I found no post that she made referencing her mission statement. So then why did she write it? I keep thinking about that and as I’ve thought about it I’ve learned as much from wondering why she wrote it than I have from the words she wrote..I believe that when I typed her mission statement out..I in a way took away from the beauty of it..So I’m attaching a picture of the original post it note and where she placed it (it’s still in the exact same place today) I believe that it answers the question as to why she wrote it..She wrote it for herself, so that as she got up and faced each day she would be reminded of “her mission”. Sydney placed this sticky note on her mirror because she realized that seeing too much of yourself causes you to lose focus on God and the purpose and mission for your life..She wanted to make sure that when she looked in the mirror she didn’t forget what her life was about. What I find most beautiful is that she wasn’t fooled into thinking it would be easy or that she wouldn’t face temptation or distraction and took the steps necessary to help overcome them in the future by placing this in the one place she knew she would look everyday. I continue to learn each day from the things she wrote and the things she did and consider it a blessing to be a part of sharing her faith and legacy with others. Thank you my sweet girl for leaving me so much of your heart.

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Sydney’s War Room

I know I’ve posted this picture before but wanted to post it again after seeing War Room. The movie touched my soul in so many different waIMG_2275ys..The majority of Sydney’s life I was lost trying to show her the right way in my own power I can see so clearly now how she suffered because of my mistakes..I thank God for the blessing of never giving up and showing me she needed him and allowing me the chance to see what a difference it made her last two months when our focus was solely on God and I knew no matter how hard I tried if I didn’t have God I couldn’t do it..God faithfully showed me when you give it to him..it becomes beautiful. Proverbs 20:7 comes to mind..unfortunately Ive experienced this scripture through disobedience and obedience..Gods way is truly the only way that will provide peace and true positive change. I’m thankful I was given enough time to apologized to Sydney in person for the mistakes I made in trying to do it on my own. She taught me so much and I’m so grateful. God continues to show me just how passionate she was about being his disciple. The minute Ms Clara showed her “War room” I couldn’t help but think of Sydney’s prayer closet she had made more then 2 years before we even knew about this movie..at only 16 she had cleaned out half her closet made a sitting chair out of a big pillow, two pillow pets and a blanket and that’s where she went to pray and spend time with God. I am so thankful for her and all the amazing gifts of faith she left for me to find. Cameron will have such a better life because we found and followed God for more of his life and because of how much trust and faith his sister had in God. I will forever wonder how many people she would have helped “raise up” for God had she still been here..Although I know she continues to speak through her book. I sure miss her energy and love for God!!

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Jeter

There isn’t much I loved more then watching her play soccer. The pain of missing her is wrapped up in every breath I take. I can’t help but feel the emptiness when I look on the soccer field. There may be 11 girls on the field but one will forever be missing to me..a little over a year and a half later and I’m still here grasping at anything and everything to keep her in my daily life. I can’t find any video of her playing when she was older so I put this together because I miss watching her play so much. Love and Miss you JETER! Thanks to all who continue to PlayforJeter

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Moving into a New Year

Moving into a New Year is not the same..I’m not excited I don’t want to celebrate because with every new year reality sets in and more time is added to my life that she isn’t a part of..If you’ve wondered how we are doing..We are surviving..we appreciate the blessings Gods given us we face the next day because we weren’t given a choice and we smile because as much as we don’t want to Cameron deserves nothing less and most of all we pray for peace and comfort from the only one who can provide it..I’m going to end by sharing my biggest blessing of 2014. You see I was having a really bad day missing Sydney and hurting because of lies regrding the accident and a few ppl saying awful things about Sydney..I couldn’t believe that I was walking through the loss of my daughter and now I was dealing with such evil from those who she thought loved her..I was in my flesh broken and not wanting to move wondering why God would add this burden on me after everything..I was screaming and crying on my bed..Satan had beaten me down I wanted to give up..quit..but at that moment I heard her voice whisper its ok Mommie I’ve given you everything you need..it touched me so much that at 10:46 am on June 3rd I tweeted it. I thought at that moment she was talking about all her other writings but at that moment as peaceful as I felt I still had no idea what God had truly waiting for me to find..then about 3:30 that afternoon I found the attached in a notes section on her phone under an email I hadn’t known about before..because she was using her phone the time and date she typed this was logged under her name..she typed this approximately 7 hours before she would be leaving me to spend eternity w/God himself. At 16 she took the time to stop and type these affirmations into her phone..all of her writings address something we have struggled with and have at times given us the strength to keep going but this one is by far the most profound being written just hours before the accident. I suffer everyday missing her but there is not a doubt in my mind EVER that she watches over me as I’m blessed with sharing her legacy smiling waiting until the day we are finally reunited! I’m forever blessed by the love and faith I see in her and I will wake up every single day hoping and praying to be someone that makes her as proud as she has made me. I love you Sydney Lisa Jeter forever and always

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Elf on the shelf

Everyone that knew my precious Sydney knew she was a lot like..well her Momma..she was a strong willed child and started her terrible twos at 18 months and I don’t think they every stopped. She challenged me constantly..I mean if I was going to tell her something I better have my facts backup and proof..All these pics of the elf on the self motivating kids to be good reminds me of one Christmas season when I think she was like 5 or 6 she was being a little hard to handle and I reminded her that if she wasn’t good Santa wouldn’t bring her any presents..She looked at me and said..Yes he will..I was worse last year and he still brought me lots of stuff…Of course I was speechless I mean what could I possible say to that? What I realized is that strong willed child turns into a strong independent young lady that became a beautiful intelligent Proverbs 31 lady..I miss that spunky little girl and I’m thankful for every minute she made me want to pull my hair out and all the others that she loved me with every thing she had because that’s the only way she knew how to love!