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Pictures are just too empty without her

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I know many will never understand the pain of never being able to take another picture of your child and Thank God you don’t..but for me I feel it everyday maybe its because I can’t seem to face reality of her being gone..maybe its that pictures look so empty without her..or maybe its just because she never ran from the camera and instead always enjoyed me taking pics..whatever the reason my heart breaks over and over again knowing she should be there and isn’t so I will forever look for a way to feel like I’ve taken a picture with her or include her..it will never seem right any other way..forever wishing Gods will for our lives wasn’t for us to walk this life without her

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Missy’s post about Sydney’s book

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The last two months of Sydney’s life is shared through her greatest love affair love with her Savior, our Lord Jesus Christ. Unselfishly, her momma, Michelle Broussard Jeter and daddy, Stacye share the passionate, rich and unedited writings of their teenage daughter. It is an intimate look into Sydney’s heart through scripture, wisdom, revelation, and love she had for her King, Jesus. Now, safely in the arms of Jesus, Sydney rests.

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2nd Annual Memorial Game “Play for Jeter”

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Everything that came out of Sydney Jeter’s mouth was wonderful: wonderfully loving, wonderfully witty, wonderfully joyful, and wonderfully sarcastic.  Sydney seemed to feel emotions more strongly than the rest of us.  When she was angry, she was furious.  If she liked you, she loved you.  She was always quick: quick on the soccer field, quick with her wit, quick to laugh and quick to love. and when she loved, she loved ferociously.  She would fight tooth and nail to defend those she loved.  She would shower you with affection. Sydney made you feel special. Being around her was like having your own personal sunshine; a sun that burned brightly and fiercely.  Sydney was passionate and vibrant and unforgettable.  She was a light so bright that if you closed your eyes you could still see her image in front of you.  To quote the musical group, Train, “When I look to the sky something tells me you’re here with me and you make everything alright”

Tonight and every night we “Play for Jeter”

written by Hannah Steward

Coach Stuart Keogh wrote-I would like to welcome everyone to Tiger Stadium. Tonight we celebrate the life of Sydney Jeter, A&M Consolidated class of 2015.  Sydney enjoyed her family, her fiends and soccer.  Many of you here tonight grew up with Sydney on the soccer field.  Whether you were her team mate, a parent, a coach or one of her many friends that came along to watch, you are a part of a community for Sydney and her family, the soccer community is counted as both family and friend. Special guest tonight joining the players on the field are:

Sydney’s parents-Stacy and Michelle Jeter, and Brother Cameron Jeter..It is with great pleasure that the A&M Consolidated Girls and Boys Soccer teams stand on Tiger Field to remember their friend, classmate and team mate, Sydney Jeter, in the 2nd Annual Sydney L. Jeter Memorial Soccer Game. Please stand for a moment of silence

 

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2nd Annual Sydney L Jeter Memorial Game

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There are no words to express how amazing it is that ppl loved Sydney enough to continue events like last night..for anyone who is or has been a part of carrying her memory..PlayingforJeter..sharing her legacy..and most importantly keeping her memory alive..I am forever greatful..appreciative..and blessed. I know many who have lost children who do not have this precious gift y’all have given us and I know you will never understand what it truly means but what I do know is that God and Sydney do..With every picture posted..every time her friends approach me not afraid to talk to me..the ones that didn’t know her at all but KNOW her now..YOU are Gods constant reminder to us that Sydney was and IS loved despite the heartache and reality that a few sought out to hurt us MANY more have stepped forward to overwhelm us with the love they have for her..So as time moves forward please remember it is okay to tell us you thought about her..to let us know she touched your life or if something good came because of her inspiration..or just to simply say you miss seeing her smile..its not sad it is a blessing that encourages us to continue. I want to say a special thanks to the Tiger Club for her Senior Tiger Paw..A&M Consolidated High School..The Soccer Community..The Tiger Soccer teams last year and this year for sharing your love for Sydney with others who may or may not have been able to know or play with her..and last but certainly not least Kim Stewart Alex and Hannah Stewart for arranging and organizing not one but two memorial games in Sydney’s honor..for the perfect words written by Hannah that let me know someone else really “KNEW” Sydney..Its not possible to describe the indescribable appreciation Stacy Jeter Cameron and I feel for all that y’all have done!

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I won’t see maroon or purple I will see her teammates whom she loved

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19 months today..some days I feel I’m still in shock and denial and some days its so real I can’t breath..missing her consumes my mind 24/7 and nothing eases the desire to have her back..Yes I feel her spirit..yes she lives in my heart..but that isn’t enough to take away the desire to hear her laughter, to hug her, to be loved by her..to watch her live..
Tonight I plan on attending the soccer game..for those that don’t know Sydney’s freshman year we only had one high school in College Station and Sophmore year her class was split as a new high school opened. Tonight is the first time those two high schools will play each other. I unlike most that will be there will not look out and see Maroon or Purple..I will look out and see her teammates whom she loved..her first high school coach on one side of the field..her last high school coach on the other side of the field..I have so many memories with so many of the girls I feel like they are part mine even though they aren’t but yet mine can only be there in Spirit..I wouldn’t want to miss it yet it is painful all the same..I’m very greatful to know that as I watch and support them that most out there will be PlayingforJeter!

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Sharing Sydney’s legacy

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A great surprise visit from sister #2. Catching up on life and things before surgeryThursday. Blessed I had Sydney’s book to show her. Thank you MJ for blessing me.

Now you’re going to have to bless me more with a “Selfie 101” class cuz I clearly need instruction and lots of practice. Lol 😜
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Sydney’s competitive teammates “Play for Jeter”

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It is always a blessing when I can have this many of Sydney’s competitive teammates together again⚽I have four schools in town with players she loved and played with for years even though her High school soccer home was A&M Consolidated. I’m forever greatful that this soccer comminity continues to remember and honor my sweet girl.

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Soccer team seniors 2015

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This is her senior class at Consol with the framed Jersey the school blessed me with. Last year they not only honored her but retired her number. These are only the seniors but I love everyone of the girls at consol who continue to remember and honor her still today

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Jeter

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There isn’t much I loved more then watching her play soccer. The pain of missing her is wrapped up in every breath I take. I can’t help but feel the emptiness when I look on the soccer field. There may be 11 girls on the field but one will forever be missing to me..a little over a year and a half later and I’m still here grasping at anything and everything to keep her in my daily life. I can’t find any video of her playing when she was older so I put this together because I miss watching her play so much. Love and Miss you JETER! Thanks to all who continue to PlayforJeter

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Moving into a New Year

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Moving into a New Year is not the same..I’m not excited I don’t want to celebrate because with every new year reality sets in and more time is added to my life that she isn’t a part of..If you’ve wondered how we are doing..We are surviving..we appreciate the blessings Gods given us we face the next day because we weren’t given a choice and we smile because as much as we don’t want to Cameron deserves nothing less and most of all we pray for peace and comfort from the only one who can provide it..I’m going to end by sharing my biggest blessing of 2014. You see I was having a really bad day missing Sydney and hurting because of lies regrding the accident and a few ppl saying awful things about Sydney..I couldn’t believe that I was walking through the loss of my daughter and now I was dealing with such evil from those who she thought loved her..I was in my flesh broken and not wanting to move wondering why God would add this burden on me after everything..I was screaming and crying on my bed..Satan had beaten me down I wanted to give up..quit..but at that moment I heard her voice whisper its ok Mommie I’ve given you everything you need..it touched me so much that at 10:46 am on June 3rd I tweeted it. I thought at that moment she was talking about all her other writings but at that moment as peaceful as I felt I still had no idea what God had truly waiting for me to find..then about 3:30 that afternoon I found the attached in a notes section on her phone under an email I hadn’t known about before..because she was using her phone the time and date she typed this was logged under her name..she typed this approximately 7 hours before she would be leaving me to spend eternity w/God himself. At 16 she took the time to stop and type these affirmations into her phone..all of her writings address something we have struggled with and have at times given us the strength to keep going but this one is by far the most profound being written just hours before the accident. I suffer everyday missing her but there is not a doubt in my mind EVER that she watches over me as I’m blessed with sharing her legacy smiling waiting until the day we are finally reunited! I’m forever blessed by the love and faith I see in her and I will wake up every single day hoping and praying to be someone that makes her as proud as she has made me. I love you Sydney Lisa Jeter forever and always

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